December 2010
November 2010
December
I was having trouble seeing what to be thankful for this year on Thanksgiving without my Lucy but I guess, if nothing else, I can be thankful that due to the holiday I had time off from work to get through the shock of losing her.
The turkey’s all gone now and I just paid the bills and its time to start a new month. Chanukah starts tomorrow evening and The Sword’s rescheduled dates...
mariposima asked: I just read about Lucy... and I know I'm late with condolences and days behind with your grieving process, but I had a little cry. For you because I know the pain and empathise, and also because she was such a lovely pussycat and a constant presence on my dashboard for the past 3+ years. I'll miss her furry face.
Hugs.xx
Hugs.xx
Been putting off this guy
for the last few weeks because I had a sick kitty to take care of. As heartbroken as I am, it’s too hard on me to be sad all the time. So I started spending time with him.
So far so good.
If Lucy was my boyfriend replacement,
then Oreo was our pet cat.
advicefromawisefool:
”Inside every cynical person, there is a disappointed idealist.”
- George Carlin
“Do not hate the Orange amplifier.”
– Dawn
Don't be silly. She was my boyfriend replacement.
Always thought it strange when people speak of me as “Lucy’s Mom”. I mean I found this kitty on the street. I didn’t birth her. Sure I took care of her cause she needed a person. I was her person.
She took care of me cause I needed a kitty. She was my kitty. She hung out with me, watched TV with me, ate dinner with me, had her own side of the bed.
I never thought of...
“Hindsight should be used as a learning tool for the future — not as a...”
– Wallace Sife - The Loss of a Pet
un asked: Sorry about your cat.
whami asked: I have been wanting to express support to you for the past couple weeks with everything that you have been going through with Lucy, but I've had no idea what to say. I still don't, but I'd like you to know that I care.
Staying home tonight
I’ve been making sure to get out and be around people who aren’t sad. But I’m also making sure to stay in and love the kitty I still have and try and get used to the house being so quiet. Lucy talked all the time. She never shut up. I miss all the meows.
Everything I own is pink or black or white.
Can’t keep Lucy ashes in a cherry box.
dontknowtheway asked: I just read about your kitty and wanted to say I'm sorry to hear it. We have three cats in those cherry boxes, Spaz, Gray Cat and Pooh. And while they are in our bedroom right now Ed and I always said we'd bury them in the backyard of our "forever house". I don't know where that will be yet but I thought it was a nice way to make sure they stay safe. It's hard to...
Went to bed last night
expecting the sadness of knowing Lucy wasn’t coming to bed with me. Laid down with all my raw feelings and hoped for sleep to come over me.
I thought it was my wishful imagination that I was hearing the pitter-patter of kitty feet in the bedroom. Then I heard it again.
Looked down and Oreo was at the foot of the bed. She’s too fat to jump up on her own and she still hasn’t...
The autopsy didn't seem morbid to me
When faced with making quick decisions about what to do with what was leftover of Lucy once her spirit, for lack of any better word, was no longer inhabiting her physical body, I found myself quick to agree to an autopsy, especially since this was a teaching hospital.
I liked the idea of students using Lucy to learn even if their findings couldn’t help her. She was the 2nd kitty to come...
Went out tonight.
I’m still sad but staying in being sad and lonely for Lucy is exhausting. She was sick for weeks, even though she had good days and bad days and I did manage to get out now and again, mostly I was worried and tired.
I was happy to get out tonight, even though I’m so sad, and have some moments of enjoyment with some old friends and some good bands.
I wore pink eyeshadow and my eyes...
American Dog and Cotton Jackson
are doing a show at the Ravari Room right now. Good to see most of my first friends in town all at the same time tonight.
The house
is too quiet.
Oh come on, seriously?
The hot jerk who dropped off the face of the earth after his girlfriend who I didn’t know anything about started texting me mean messages suddenly wants to discuss. After two months.
He sooooo doesn’t matter a thing anymore.
Just after I typed that
Oreo came in. Put her in bed to fill up the empty spot. She’s purring beside me.
Going to bed was the worst
I moved back up to the bedroom in an effort to maintain something close to our normal routine which helps Oreo cope with daily life. The girl’s got serious.anxiety issues and doesn’t handle change well.
Routines, I’ve found, work for me too.
But in this case it was heartbreaking as I climbed into bed and realized that every night I ask, “Where’s my Lucy? I want...
Browsing the internet
for unusual pet urns and baby girl kitties in need of adoption.
Even though I feel like it’s too soon for me to have either
It's just me and Oreo for Thanksgiving
I’m making a turkey tenderloin which takes about an hour to cook.
Oreo’s already interested.
We’ve got side dishes and pumpkin pie too.
I’m on Season 4 of My Name is Earl now.
I’ll start watching V when I’m done.